curious 4feedback?

I am curious to hear feedback regarding my plan for this bdsm journey. As my earlier post highlight, i've had a long history of masturbating, along with porn magazines/videos and more recently chatrooms and webcam. Since meeting and training with Mistress, She has limited me to doing this only at least once a week, unless it is with wife! If with wife, as many times as needed but unfortunately lately it hasn't been much. I have to say my relationship with my wife has been getting better, since i'm not out on the computer ALL the time! so that is a very positive thing! As i've mentioned before my wife and life are very, very vanilla which isn't all bad and i don't want to lose this! my desire to experience this bdsm for real has long been a desire and interests to me. This is why i asked earlier if vanilla and bdsm can co-exist. Actually, i feel they can and one can actually improve the other! i have been loyal to Mistress and her demands on me to not to cum unless She gives permission or unless with wife. Once Mistress and i meet and actually begin this bdsm journey together, my hope is to have Mistress take various digital pictures of this submissive in various bdsm poses and positions and then to put them up here on my blog for others to comment and leave feedback. 97% of me is vanilla, and an everyday kind of guy and always will be. It's the 3% of kink in me that can't let go of this desire to establish our D/s relationship and to open it up for feedback, discussion and thoughts on the www. Ideally Mistress will use and train me as a beta sub for periodic play sessions in her Dungeon to keep me focussed and aware of this reality. In between real sessions would involve D/s training via internet/telephone. This strict dicipline and training will deter my return back into my other before mentions activities which is a negative force on me and my marriage. Any thoughts or comments appreciated?
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